It is a very sad case indeed.

'tis the result of my ever-increasing manipulative usage of the 'family' computer.

The original table has disintigrated and collasped, I stole another from the Study Room and plonked the WIndows 98 Computer at the top. The mouse is hidden from sight and the keyboard is under a U make a Difference Touch cloth on top of the monitor. The CPU is under the table and on a trolley which we made from the bits and broken pieces of the original table. Actually, my brother made it while I just screwed on the wheels ((: Yays. That's $20 saved.
According to Aunt Marissa, the computer guy had to play "skipping rope" all around my room when he came over to fix up the internet connection. But I've sort of given up on cleaning up my room already. Every time I do, some mess from the cupboards will end up on the floor again and then I'll have to jsut chuck everything in a stack on the floor. If there were such a thing as a dump-out-all-contents machine I would apply it on my room and check out all the unknown and buried treasures stored there for ages. Then I could have a jumbo or garage sale :D I love garage sales! The feeling of relief that your trash has suddenly become someone elses' treasure or the feeling when you've hugged that dirty scratchy stuffed giraffe you'd just bought at the garage sale and knew it was for you the minute you set eyes on it.

Okay, back on track.

Sunday.Hmm. Must say I was much disappointed. Perhaps it has become such a norm that I take it for granted. It was almost a replica of last year's ceremony. Same people (okay, same nerdy look. I guess I looked like one of them too), same announcer, same guest-of-honour, same show which they used to entertain us before they started. I think Mr Bean is rather freaky. Haha. I know, this is weird 'cause he's suppose to be funny and make people laugh, but somehow in the show with all the elements included... And I couldn't help watching though I vowed never to raise my head and take in that oh-so-familiar scene I've watched million of trillion times stored somewhere in my head on the verge of reeling back. I was staring at my phone and suddenly this spine-chilling violin eee with the thump thump of the drums towards the climax plays in my ears and the audience is all gasping and I helplessly look up. Ahh I might as well give up trying.

Waited, waited and waited some more. Impatient streak kicks in. Waited, waited. Saw the clock strike 11, 11:15, 11:30. Was figiting around in my seat. And then suddenly like a whirlwind we're ushered and pushed and shakened hands with and I hear my name being called and I collect it and I descend. And I collect my bag and am gone.

It's only in the car that I realise I'm only going to be donating $30 to our lunch today.
Anyway, ate lunch with parents and G12, rushed off to Expo. Was slightly late, had to sit at the end.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BELOVED MAMA JIA RONG & AMANDA!

Whee. She's turning 20 on thursday! :D Love you loads <333

Then I got some major scolding from Dad for making him wait and not checking my phone or answering the calls. And this one hurts, cause it's unusual for him to say such things. I mean, Mum nags all the time I'm practically immune to hers but for Dad, that's a different case. Was just so caught up in all that worshipping I couldn't hear that faintest vibration in my bag. Then we sang and celebrated the birthdays outside and by the time I realised there were 7 missed calls, we were halfway praying and I didnt want to disrupt everyone. Was super stressed and plus we had to pick up Geraldine and Elizabeth. And then Kel and Char played the Bye bye game but my heart was not really in the mood but it kinda lightened up the mood anyway :)) Thanks guys.
But it worked out okay in the end. I just hope to have a plan where I can actually talk one day.
Monday. School.It surprises me that it's only the second week of school because somehow I feel like I've been there forever already. Yet I don't exactly dread it anymore.
I only feel that big hole expanding itself bigger and bigger maybe binary fission'll occur anytime. But isn't this what I wanted? I think so. I think it is. But believing in the unseen, that's faith alright.

Yet at the same time I'm bonding, and I think this one will last. This one will not have the superficialness of the last. Please don't let me down this time.
I'm now a peer tutor. The teachers say the whole class has to be. But maybe IF I told her my impatient "WHY DONT YOU GET IT?!" personaility she'd think twice :D I think it's fun though. WHEE.

Sponge bob is not showing today )):

I stopped talking to Sel cause I wanted to watch it so badly for comfort today. Some have comfort food and comfort blankets. Blue bear will always be my first, but Ah bob ranks pretty high.Boo hoo. It's taken over by some show on vanthasam central cos today's hari raya.

Long live AH BOB AND PATTY!

May they always always always rule Channel 6 at 6-6:30pm!

I'm drinking expired Yakult milk. Let's hope I don't get a replay of what happened at Monday Assembly. Monday Assembly. As of Day one, a day has not passed in which I can have a leisurely stroll up to class, put down my bag and take my book down. I shall not elaborate further as seemeth (Shakespearean stolen from Macbeth Act 1 Scene 2) by my earlier rantings against ahem parties.

Downloaded 'For Fruits Basket' and Hope that it wouldn't be another white elephant collecting dust in the millions of folders that I have containing scores from Grandma's time. Well technically they are from her. The tune is so so so sweet and touching I almost cried just hearing the opening song (and of course reading the subs).

I was so happy, you were laughing
With a smile that melts everything away

Spring is still far away, inside the cold earth,
Waiting for the time to sprout

For instance, even if today is painful
And yesterday's wounds remain

I want to believe that I can free my heart and go on
I cannot be reborn
But I can change as I go on, so
Let's stay together always

Smile only at me and touch me with those fingers
This simple desire is everlasting
I want things to be simple
Let's finally get across this sea of mournful sorrow

For instance, even if today is painful
Someday it will become a warm memory
If you leave everything up to your heart
I understand the meaning our living here

It is to know the joy of having been born
Let's stay together always
For instance, even if today is painful
Someday it will become a warm memory

If you leave everything up to your heart
I understand the meaning our living here
It is to know the joy of having been born
Let's stay together always