YES since im all PERKY (strange, it being 11:49 at the moment) i shall continue with my RETREAT(=

SAT, 18 june, DAY TWO
okays woke up to the strains of tammy's hp alarm. which happened to be her mum singing. HAHA. i dont mean to say anything, but it REALLY woke me up (= LOL.

had breakfast. bee hoon fishball sausage. AS EXPECTED. no where near as good as sabbie's one though (=
im so used to the camp food now i cld practically memorise the dishes. because we always order from the same caterer. and we're always at the same venue. and it's actually the chinese store auntie i think. the one that the harpists LOVE to patronize.

yes i know i really love my group and all but i feel so SMALL in there. not as in literally small (in fact i tink im the tallest) but as in they're all sec3/4/j1 and im like e only sec2? yup. and 4 of them were scgians so me and tammy were abit out of place. but we did warm up soon enough. then went on to emmanual hall.learnt the it is now dance.

very very complicated but easy once you know it(=
i think i forgot all of it by now though. haha.

then had worship. and then SOLITUDE. oh gosh this is so cool. we had one last time in tabernacle. so our cell (somehow we always seem to stick together although we're separated. SO UNITED!!) went hunting for a suitable place to do quiet time. went to the back of the dnt block there.. near the toilets. facing the condo, which i later came to realise was PS KHONG'S HOUSE. and it was sitting all along there and i didnt even know. shows how blur i am.

and we were like, sitting all in a circle, staring at each other. then i stood up and said it was impossible to do qt. haha. so ended up in the bball court with yijing. tried to concentrate; on God but found it too quiet and peaceful. i did get a word though. they asked us to meditate on a verse, 1 john something. and it was the same psg as the first day. loving others. then i got this 'image' of a jar. one that kept God's love to itself was stagnant and stale. lack of change in life. dry spiritual life and growth. but the jar that poured out God's love to others was refilled and fresh love from God poured back into it; and overspilled to others in blessings. so we shd be lik the 2nd jar, not hording it to ourselves but givig others, so there can be change.

then i felt so sleepy just plonked my head down on my bible and stared at the blue sky, the leaves on the tree rustlingin the wind. yijing and michelle joined me in my daydreaming...

and before i knew it it was over :'( kind of sad.
had debrief. and GOSH. they're ans arelike super profound! not lik ours; one line ans or jus 'dunno'. HAHA. so i forced myself to elaborate more on my pt.
lunched.
prepared for night. supposed to put up a skit or sth on what yoznet means to us. so we joined up with gentleness(= wanted to be combined but cldnt so had part 1 part 2 instead. with vanessa of course everyone was entertained(= i was the good crowd. HAHA.

then had some telematch thing. SO FUN! had one obstacle course thingy we had to turn 10 rounds, kick ball round cones, sskip with hula hoop, do the hula 10 times, skip back, and put the ball back. had one where we had to dip the sponge in the water and squeeze it in another pail. WE WERE INNOVATIVE(= used our shirts as well. den went on to try picking polo sweets out of this disgusting mixture of floor n stuff using a toothpick in our mouth.

last water bomb game was the BEST(= all saboed SALLY! HAHA. but she won! cos after she got soaked was baking in the sun so long that she dried(x

everyone was drenched. went to bathe. level 1 this time. REALLY tiny. dressed in formal clothes for the 'formal nite' thingy at emmanual hall. we went up den saw buffet style food.. but not so hi class of cos. they really decorated the place until so nice(= so touched. balloons. ribbons. FOR US! then went in was like SHOCKed. there were picnic mats; with 3 small candles in the middle of the mat. den got music. was like so romantic. DUG IN

nexxt was the performance. i think we did prettywell(x with vanessaas the commedian and all.

DANCE
did the end part of the it is now song again.

SESSION
ps yo preached again. felt abit xian. was doodling and colouring away with yj and michelle. haha. so my book is now all colourful(= but then next part was *drumroll*

holy spirit night [specially for twin to read]
well, it wasnt called offically that but anyway.
we were jus holding out our hands. receiving from God.
then ps yo blessed her 12, sprinkled holy water on them.
her 12 then went on to pray for their 12, and finally one leader came up to me to pray (FINALLY, was standing there until leg sore)
then when she dipped her hand in and put it against my forehead, it felt very warm, and the drops that fell felt very special, as if it was really God.
then she started praying saying that i should just let go, dun be afraid.
i was kinda expecting something but nothing much happened. so was very DISAPPOINTED. then so i just sat down, next to peishi, who was crying, and buried my head. then jia rong (my spiritual mama) came up to me and asked me if i wanted a hug. then i hugged her. and tears started flowing..

thought about my mum.
and stuff
cos we jus had
a mini quarrel
the hp wallpaper one
then i thought likeGod was using jiarong
to show dat, i shd forgive mum
and start allover.

felt so happie after that (x
had birthday cakes after that
for the june babies
slept
woke upwith terrible cold
fan was blasting rite in my face
too bad i was sweating before i slept
i have WEIRD body patterns